Question for self... Why am I always "in a hurry"? I say I dislike the hurry, hurry, quick, quick, quick, instant, instant, instant stuff, of this modern time. I say it. I mouth it. But then, even when I'm doing the simple first-thing-in-the-morning things of getting my decaf and putting husband's coffee together in the pot, and etc.... I have this mind set of.... How quickly am I doing it? -sighhhhhhhhhhhhh-
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One day I even 'caught myself' looking at the clock, before steping in to the shower, to check to see how quickly I could be finished. Now that was sort of a 'wake up call.' It was soooooo weird {to me anyway}, when I really considered it. How fast can I take a shower?!?!? What possible difference does it make?????? I'm not punching any time clocks. Nor do I still have family to get off to work, school, etc. I'm not in that time of my life anymore. I'm very happy to be in this later, more relaxed time of life. Sooooooooooo... why am I checking the clock, to see how fast I can have a morning shower???!!!???
And what does this say, about my so-called dearly held personal beliefs? I say I love calm, quiet, smoothness, tranquility, simplicity, hardly any deadlines, 'the old ways,' not trying to be tooooo 'techy,' etc., etc., etc. But ~~ 'when push comes to shove' ~~ do I? Seems this lingering attachment to doing-things-in-quickest-time does not show that I really, really, really have internalized, all those lovely things I say I want. -sigh-
But then, another favorite saying of mine is.... "I don't want to be all done. When one is 'finished' and 'perfect,' what's left?" :-) Soooo... I guess I should not despair. Keep wanting all the things which go with calm simplicity. But watch myself for old hurry-hurry-hurry habits. Notice them. Deal with them, if it will make me more calm and happy.
Do you have any 'Questions For Self'? Things you notice about yourself, which don't seem to fit with what you think you think? :-)
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One day I even 'caught myself' looking at the clock, before steping in to the shower, to check to see how quickly I could be finished. Now that was sort of a 'wake up call.' It was soooooo weird {to me anyway}, when I really considered it. How fast can I take a shower?!?!? What possible difference does it make?????? I'm not punching any time clocks. Nor do I still have family to get off to work, school, etc. I'm not in that time of my life anymore. I'm very happy to be in this later, more relaxed time of life. Sooooooooooo... why am I checking the clock, to see how fast I can have a morning shower???!!!???
And what does this say, about my so-called dearly held personal beliefs? I say I love calm, quiet, smoothness, tranquility, simplicity, hardly any deadlines, 'the old ways,' not trying to be tooooo 'techy,' etc., etc., etc. But ~~ 'when push comes to shove' ~~ do I? Seems this lingering attachment to doing-things-in-quickest-time does not show that I really, really, really have internalized, all those lovely things I say I want. -sigh-
But then, another favorite saying of mine is.... "I don't want to be all done. When one is 'finished' and 'perfect,' what's left?" :-) Soooo... I guess I should not despair. Keep wanting all the things which go with calm simplicity. But watch myself for old hurry-hurry-hurry habits. Notice them. Deal with them, if it will make me more calm and happy.
Do you have any 'Questions For Self'? Things you notice about yourself, which don't seem to fit with what you think you think? :-)
